make me

24Apr10

oh my. it’s been a year since i last blogged. the only reason why i came back to blogging was just because i was listening to andrea bocelli and felt inspired. was listening to white christmas and now his duet with celine dion, the prayer. man do i love listening to opera.

recently, i had began to learn a lot about myself, the people around me, the things that happen et cetera… you know, as much as i wanna appear to be all strong, independent and the lady who don’t give two hoots about detractors, sometimes it really hurts.

being someone who’s naturally not a popular kid in the block, the typical sanguine who can mingle around, the sanguine who everyone enjoys being around with, things were not easy. i had to make that extra effort to show people that hey, don’t shun away from me.

i can be a friend too…

but i find that not a lot of people see the things i do as what i really meant it to be. sometimes, when you r really genuine, people may not necessary find you so. whereas for hypocrites who only pretend to care but cos’ they are so good in being a two-faced person, loads might prefer to fling to him or her.

life.

i guess the inner me still holds insecurities that no one knows. sigh.

i hope to be more active in blogging… i realized that ever since i started working, i had less energy to wanna do any other thing. but things are gonna change.

these 2 years had been a major process of change for me. i had seen more people, scrutinize at my own flaws, failed at work, climbed back up again, discovered the importance of living your passion. it’s just so hard, so harsh to be doing something which you absolutely have no passion about. it really drains you, like a sponge which life’s the water akin to blood to human, slowly squeezed out till you go lifeless. morbid.

make that change you have to, today.

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